Not too long ago, Isabel had this post on her blog about her bubble. I remember reading her post and thinking, that's exactly me. I have this comfort zone and it's just darn hard to get out of it.
Just to recap the situation... some time during my undergrad studies, I lost my motivation that would have pushed me to achieve stuff. I don't know why or how, but I just lost it... Then, after my undergard, I went straight ahead and did my master degree, because truth was, I was too scare to leave the student life and become an adult. While doing my master degree, I found this job... and come September, I'll have been here for 2 years.
When I started this job, I knew it wouldn't be forever. I have been on short contracts ever since I started... 4 months here, 4 months there... 6 months here, 5 months there. My goal was to stay here at least a year and a half to gather experience and then, find a new job... Thing is, with the job market pretty saturated in my field, it's just hard to look for a new job. So I got comfy in my position, doing the brainless work and collecting a steady paycheck.
Well guess what? Yep, they've just burst my bubble. I've approached my supervisor last week, asking him about my contract. See, it ends at the end of August and rumors are that none of the contract will be renewed. I had my doubts about it since late April, early May... so I've started looking for work, but nothing really serious... well now, it's confirmed. My supervisor said that the chances were slim that my contract will be renewed. Not because I'm not doing a good job or the work I do is unimportant... just because they are short on funds.
Ah well... what can I say? For the moment, I'm not too worried about it. In a way, I'm actually glad cos this is the kick I needed to move on. Time to re-motivate myself and achieve something... At the same time, I would welcome a few weeks off... I've never had a real break... I went from undergrad to master to having a job, without a pause... and well since I was on contract, I haven't had "real" vacation for a long time... and since I'm still living at home, I don't have that much expenses. It's not as if I had student loans and lots of bills to pay (phewww)...
Of course, on the other hand, I'm panicking... first, like I said, job market is saturated and R&D in biotechs and the pharmaceutical industry isn't doing great at the moment. Add in the fact that I don't really want to re-locate... Maybe it's time for me to find something else to do? I haven't told my parents yet, because then they would worry and be nagging me about looking for a job. I am looking... just at my pace.
So there... my bubble is gone... burst...
However, I'm not done with my ramblings... sorry ^_^; You'll have to bear with me a little bit more... first, my head has been itching soooo much!! I have eczema on my head. Yes, on my head... worst place to have it! and I really don't know why it's been so bad lately? Usually, it gets better during the summer... perhaps my body is stressing?!? All I know is that I hate it, because you have dry skin coming off... Speaking of dry skin, I have a patch of it on my left eyelid. Seriously, these things happen to me at the weirdest place.
Also, I lost my Indigo/Chapters coupons :( I had 3 5$ off coupons and I don't know where they are!! I think they slipped out of my book journal :( It just plain sucks. Luckily, I can still use the 5$ off online...
Now, you know I'm really whining... because my copy of Tribute by Nora Roberts still hasn't been shipped!!! I'm thinking of going to the bookstore and buying it... Then, I'll return the copy I get by mail... I really need a good book to get me back in my reading mojo... Plus, Holly has just reviewed Death Angel by Linda Howard and she makes the book sounds sooo good... Should I get it?
So enough whining and ranting... to finish on a good note, I'm going to see Indiana Jones 4 tonight!! I've already seen it with some friends, but my dad wants to see it... I think the last time my dad went to see a movie, it was Crocodile Dundee 3 LOL :) So rare!!
ps - by the way, anyone has suggestions/recommendations for urban fantasy/fantasy books with romance in it?